Unbearably Unspeakable .

Saturday, July 30, 2005
6:09 PM

Stayed at home the whole dae.. morning watched tv... watched doraemon.. haha.. so childish.. after that hui ru sms-ed and asked mi to call her.. always ask mi call hp one.. haha.. like her house the phone out of order.. haha.. joking la.. anyway hui ru.. ur name appeared again.. haha.. i will try my best to let ur name appear ok? haha.. then watched superstar.. then studied ss... then slack around at home.. played computer and watched tv again.. basically the whole day was like that.. then back to ss again.. cannot study tomorrow cuz going malaysia.. haiz.. then slept at bout 4.45 till 5.15.. so long.. haha... like pig le... then bathe and then watched tv again.. wanted to read ss again.. but went downstairs to buy i-weekly.. but didn't manage to.. cuz all was sold out.. couldn't find it at seven-eleven.. then now back here.. haha.. short entry todae.. perhaps the shortest i've ever written.. cuz nothing special todae.. till here.. k.. bye.. :)

Friday, July 29, 2005
8:31 PM

Hmm... todae was another tired day.. but never mind.. fridae le!! can wake up late tomorrow.. finally!! then todae first period had maths.. went through the worksheet we did yesterdae and did another worksheet todae.. almost everyday will have maths homework one.. haiz.. then had recess.. wanted to eat but didn't cuz was like everydae looking at the same food... sick of it.. then chinese.. as usual sleepy during mr yeo's lesson.. then did experiment during physics for the whole period.. then went through compre worksheet during english... and then had lunch and studied at the study table with michelle, yan ping and tanisha.. but iwas distracted with everyone walking by.. keep looking here and there... onli studied a while and talk a lot.. then after that went to physics lab for our bio test.. a lot of people said it was easy.. but i think it's not as easy as they sounded.. i think the multiple choice veri difficult.. anyway it's over... then monday got ss test.. but is source base.. first time got source base test.. quite scared.. but no need study as much as wat i usually study for essay ba i suppose.. then training was cancelled todae.. cuz no place.. then next tuesdae got training at changkat.. eee.. i dun like that place.. then slept for bout 20 minutes jus now.. so tired... listening to zhu wo sheng ri kuai le at the moment.. love this song.. hehe.. till here.. bye..

Thursday, July 28, 2005
5:50 PM

Yesterdae Hui Ru called mi at bout 8 plus or 9.. then told mi bout her friend going to the the mediacorp and watching the superstar live.. then it didn't realli matter much to mi la.. but then she said that her friend saw leon and managed to take picture with him... oh my god!! not fair... i oso wan... i wish i was there... :( then todae had chem and pe before recess.. actualli wanted to re-run again but was not in the mood to do so.. so i jus pace jasmine for the first and last round.. and she managed to pass... then after recess had eng paper one test.. the topic was... dunno wat to sae.. maybe the lousiest topic i've ever seen.. then ss was so boring... hui ru wan to fall asleep le. haha.. but i was still ok.. but i every time dunno wat is she talking about one.. then after that had cme during lunch hour.. so i can jus eat bread for lunch.. then we did heart dissection during bio.. wah.. so cool.. but i didn't dare to touch the heart.. was quite amazing and interesting.. Mrs Lai saes this is the first time we are so noisy.. haha... then after that was maths... did the graph thing.. and came home.. took same bus with hui juan.. yan ping was in the bus too.. but she was in the lower deck.. then came home.. did maths and studied bio till now.. was not in the mood.. keep feeling tired.. i wan to sleep.. then tomorrow's training is cancelled most probably.. cuz coach sms-ed and said he didn't manage to book changkat... k.. till here... bye..

Wednesday, July 27, 2005
3:36 PM

Didn't blog yesterdae.. cuz came home quite late... yesterdae actualli nothing much.. rained quite heavily in the morning.. then reached school at bout 7.. much later than usual.. then there's no assembly and no wushu as well.. had cme during lunch.. then after that got maths... maths lesson went to library to play the maths game.. but played nothing... was there talking all the while... i hope every maths lesson could be like this.. then looked at career guide.. but dunno wat i want to be... haiz.. no future... then after that we were locked outside the class agin.. always leave the key in the class.. then walked hui ru up to r3.. then went back to class and they managed to get the key out from the window.. wow.. pro... then did work in class.. after that went to find tse yun to go changkat together.. but pok chang told mi training is in school.. sudden change... but hui ling didn't noe and went to changkat then she didn't cum back le.. she went home straight away.. then training till 6.30 and reached home at bout 7... then did some work... after that watched tv and sleep... that's basically how i live everydae..
Then todae felt very very tired.. slept throughout the journey to school.. first time felt so so tired... then had physics.. did the poe worksheet... after that recess.. then maths jus listening to the teacher.. everyone was sleeping.. then peak siah fell asleep.. her posture so funni.. haha.. then bio past quite fast.. tomorrow can take a look at heart and one more.. but i forgot wat it is... yeah!! but i dun wan to touch it.. then chinese went through zuo ye... chinese tests postponed to 12 of august... yeah!! then stayed back for chem.. did spa.. after that walked to the bus stop with eunice and michelle.. and came back.. first thing do maths... and now on computer lor... next mondae got ss test.. haiz.. cannot have fun during this weekend...

Monday, July 25, 2005
4:17 PM

Felt the usual tiredness like normal school days.. SS was boring as usual.. then after that was recess.. stayed in class to do physics.. then after that went for physics.. went through workbook... then was like all wrong.. haha.. do le like never do.. then chinese so tired... mr yeo keep suan-ing us again.. always like this one la.. then eng did presentation of mindmap then did some practice on exposition... after that went for lunch then went back to class to do maths but was like did half a sum onli.. slacking more and more... can the lazy bug stop biting mi and leave mi right now?? haha.. lame... -_- then maths test quite difficult... then whole lesson was test so didn't have any maths lesson.. after that.. my parents come and fetched mi.. hehe.. then reached home le.. did my geo workbook.. actualli is not do but copy.. hehe.. after that did bio tys.. then went to bathe.. then studied a bit of bio.. cannot focus.. keep listening to songs.. listening to yong gan at the moment.. so nice.. keep repeating the song.. kk.. till here.. bye...

Sunday, July 24, 2005
5:04 PM

Didn't blog yesterdae.. cuz i was too tired and didn't use the com... went to tm with hui ru yesterdae.. shopped around... onli bought one ci yu shou ce and food cuz i was hungry.. then didn't buy anything else... went to poular first.. then after that went to ntuc cuz hui ru wanted to buy somehting for her mother.. then went to century square the montip... then aries... didn't buy anything from there cuz i didn't see any that really attracted my attention.. then went to sebawang to see jolin's cd.. i'm going to buy it soon.. hehe.. after that went to this fashion... tried on this shirt which looked quite small.. but the arm there was quite loose... i'm ot fated to that shirt.. haha.. then hui ru bought one t-shirt from there... saw wei shi... she wear the specs so cool... haha.. then after that i went home while hui ru went to meet them to watch movie.. hui ru walked mi to the mrt station.. haha.. thanx ah.. u are not a dog.. haha.. then at night went to kallang for dinner.. ate quite a lot.. haha... then todae stayed at home to watch the superstar... then after that studied a maths for a while.. no mood.. onli did some questions.. then slack around... so bored cuz no show to watch since 2... tomorrow got to go school again.. cannot wake up late in the morning le.. :(..

Friday, July 22, 2005
7:12 PM

Todae was so tired... dun feel like waking up in the morning.. wanted to sleep for a little more while but scared that i will overslept.. haha.. so no choice.. have to wake up upon hearing the ringing of the clock.. then had maths in the first period.. quite boring.. then after recess had chinese.. got ting xie.. then didn't realli learnt and mr yeo didn't tell us to learn wat words... then most of the words i dunno... i learn one he onli gave a few... then after that was eng and e geo... both teachers not here.. haha.. so had free period till the end of the dae.. but still have to do some work.. so sian.. especially sian when doing compre.. but managed to complete it.. then after school went to yan ping's house with tse yun, hui ling and yan ping la obviously.. haha.. her maid cooked maggie mee for us... thanx.. hehe.. was nice but very hot... then after that we "explored" her fridge and found ICE CREAM!! then tse yun, hui ling and mi ate her ice cream.. haha.. i was so tempted to it.. scooped ice cream for hui ling and tse yun.. haha.. be their ice cream women... then went for training at changkat... was late by bout half an hour.. haha.. then hui ling was actualli supposed to leave at 4.30 for her grandma's birthdae.. miss gan agreed but the coach dun let cuz he said hui ling was late.. wat the.. made her so angry.. if it was mi.. i would even be angrier... and oh ya.. leon didn't get in to the semi-finals.. so sadded... maybe he's not fated.. :( but kelly went in.. haha.. actualli i was thinking if leon got in then i sure go junction 8 to see him one.. haha.. but now no need go le.. *sobs*...

Thursday, July 21, 2005
4:09 PM

Didn't blog yesterdae.. cuz was tired from the napfa test.. dunno how to spell.. hehe.. reached home at bout 6.20.. so late and tired... then even more tired from the coughing.. haiz... yesterdae's lesson was quite ok.. after school stayed in class to do homework then went for the napfa test.. then miss kum said that bio test is postponed... yeah!!! so cool.. then can watch jue dui superstar.. oh my god.. leon so shuai!! haha.. he rox.. so mani tests are coming up.. next week got a maths and bio tests.. then next next week got chem and chinese.. then todae went to school.. ran 2.4 during pe.. so tired.. no energy.. timing was.. quite bad.. then had racial harmony activities... played snap and heart attack in class... so fun!! i hope school will be like that everyday.. after school went tm with michelle, ling feng, hui ru and yan ping.. ate long john.. and saw tse yun.. haha.. then walked around and took neoprint.. actualli wanted go aries but didn't cuz everyone wants to go home le.. then i oso went home lor.. and here i am now... haha...

Tuesday, July 19, 2005
7:26 PM

Came home not long ago.. todae.. time was passing quite fast.. faster than normal la.. then had bio first.. miss kum not here so the training tacher taught us.. then after that chem did mindmap so basically there was no lesson.. maths was going through the worksheet for the whole lesson.. then assembly got the talk on dance and also the dance.. mr yeo not here todae but too bad we dun have chinese todae.. so sad.. todae felt wuite tired cuz yesterdae slept at about 10.50.. watched the incredible tales.. first time.. haha.. then after school the eng lesson did discussion... then after that tse yun and pok chang came and looked for mi.. they went library first then i walked hui ru up to 3r3... on the way saw weilin and peak siah.. they so funni.. after that i went back to class and wanted to go library to find tse yun and pok chang but can't find them so i went back to class.. after that they came to class and looked for mi again.. so lame.. haha.. they were actualli in the room but i couldn't find them.. then actualli wanted to do bio but ended help them to solve maths question... actualli wanted to give up cuz i jus can't solve it.. but i jian chi dao di.. and the question is solved!! haha.. then after that we went training lor... sze ling and jia yi came too.. so long never play with seniors already... and that's my day.. thursdae confirm have to stay back for bio test.. haiz.. sian...

Monday, July 18, 2005
6:58 PM

So tired.. slept for a while jus now.. for bout 20 minutes onli.. i wonder when can i have a good sleep everyday.. todae had vl then ss.. mdm lee told us to do a writeup on how to get P6 students to choose ngee ann.. then after that was recess.. then had physics.. it was so difficult... urghh... going to do badly again this time.. but it's already over so dun think of it for the moment... then chi was so boring again.. while mr yeo was toking i was packing my chinese file.. i'm getting less and less concentrated during chinese class.. then eng completed the debate which we stopped last fridae.. then did eng compre.. haiz.. i always fail one.. i think i have onli passed in my compre once for the whole year.. wat a failure.. i'm always a one la.. then mrs wee didn't cum todae but we can't have early dissmisal.. so did one maths question in class and then did eng compre till 2.10 then went home... todae my father drove mi back.. so long never drive mi home le since the school gate is closed in the afternoons.. then finished up the compre and heard that have to stay back for bio test on thursdae after the racial harmony day.. so sian.. actualli can go out and enjoy but in the end have to stay back for a test.. haiz.. my life is jus all these.. there's nothing meaningful in my life.. it's jus black and white... and there's no colour in it.. i am such a failue in this life.. maybe i am not fitted to be here... there's nothing in my memories... there's onli pain...

Sunday, July 17, 2005
5:18 PM

Didn't blog yesterdae.. sorri. first time.. let mi tok bout yesterdae...

afternoon studied physics.. but was not in the mood to concentrate.. keep walking here and there and playing computer.. was jus reading through not realli studying.. haiz.. slacking a lot.. then at night went to my cousin's house.. cuz my parents were invited to a dinner.. then my brother was not at home... so my dad and mum brought mi to my cousin's house till 10 something.. they fetched mi back when they came back from the dinner.. and when i came home it was like 11 already.. then my bro using com so i cannot blog..

Then todae.. studied physics again.. also not concentrating.. i hate tests.. dun think i will do well for this test cuz i didn't realli studied.. was jus keep browsing through the book.. then whole day was like.. holding that book but didn't realli concentrate.. i wonder when can i lead an enjoyable and relaxed life.. haiz...

Friday, July 15, 2005
7:22 PM

Jus finished my dinner not long ago.. so full and sleepy.. haha.. like a pig.. which always sleeps after it eats.. in fact.. i'm realli one.. cuz i always need to sleep for veri long hours.. and i can finally do it todae!! yeah!! todae basically felt veri sleepy throughout the dae.. maths was doing all those sums like wat we usually do.. then.. recess didn't manage to eat anything cuz have to stay in class to complete my maths which i don't noe how to do.. i've been having problems with my a maths chapter.. haiz.. i'm so scared of the maths test on week 5.. if i didn't remember wrongly.. then during chinese.. i'm so tired that i'm not in the mood to pay attention to wat mr yeo said.. onli the story he told us at the end of the lesson.. then physics we did filing and mindmap.. so basically no lesson for physics.. then eng did the debate.. fortunately everything went well.. i was stunned with all the questions being asked by the class.. but managed to answer.. i was so nervous that my whole hand went cold and white.. thanx weilin for providing mi warmth.. haha.. then after school.. went to mac with hui ling, tse yun and sze ling.. sat down there eat, talk and laugh.. then went changkat for training.. after training.. dad fetched mi back.. then he drove mi and my cousin to her house.. then waited for my cousin to prepare for tuition and do her homework.. then we walked home.. i went to buy newspaper and i-weekly jus for the sake of leon.. haha.. nvm.. then got to do physics mindmap le.. bye..

Thursday, July 14, 2005
6:02 PM

Jus finish watching tv.. we were released at bout 3.10 todae then i reached home at bout 3.50.. see how long do i need to reach my house from the school? about 30 minutes.. the other 10 minutes is walking to the bus stop from school.. did my homework in the afternoon when i came home.. had e maths the circles and tangent test todae... quite difficult.. haiz.. then next week got two tests.. how to study when i'm no in the mood to do so? then todae the eng debate.. the four groups that debated earlier were so pro.. this gave mi much more pressure cuz our group's speech was like... so short... then we have to agree that five- day week benefited us in the way that it enables us to spend more time with our family.. how to debate when we ourselves do not agree with this statement... then todae is not our turn yet.. i think we will have our turn tomorrow.. i tried to extend wat we wanted to sae but i can't think of anymore points to add on... i dunno wat to do... oh ya.. btw miss goh is not in school todae.. and we do not have to run 2.4... so cool.. and we had free games during pe lesson... i'm feeling so tired now.. i dun feel like doing anything anymore...

Wednesday, July 13, 2005
4:10 PM

Todae i am able to cum home earlier compared to the last two days.. mrs teh released us early after we have done our SPA.. then reached home do e maths.. tomorrow got the circles and tangents test.. dead.. so difficult.. always dunno how to do.. if not mus think for veri long.. then now doing physics at the moment.. not even a bit looking forward to tomorrow.. cuz have to run 2.4 again.. and oso have eng.. doing the debate.. dun wan to tok bout it cuz i jus noe that i will die tomorrow.. dun even noe wat to write for the debate title.. i hope i can fall sick immediately... so i will not have to go to school tomorrow.. then next week got physics and bio tests.. both tests are out to kill.. i hope i can leave this world.. cuz i'm realli tired of this life.. tired and sick of every single thing.. i jus hope i can have a good rest for a period of time.. with no homework.. no tests.. and NO TROUBLES.. i jus hope that i can lead a simple life without so many so many thoughts in my mind that bother mi every single minute every single second...

Tuesday, July 12, 2005
7:44 PM

Jus finish doing my homework.. not all la.. left one question of a maths the graph thingy.. sian.. todae went to school so tired... then first period was bio.. ok la.. not that boring.. actualli learnt quite a lot of things which i had never thought before.. like the bone marrow transplant.. and some diseases caused by blood cells.. then the following week we can look at a heart.. quite looking forward to it thought it will be disgusting but i have never seen a heart before.. then chem.. do all those calculations lor.. then chem test cancelled!! yeah!! mrs teh so cool.. haha.. after that maths go through tangent w/s.. then mrs wee angry with us.. but for a while onli la.. haha.. after that was wushu.. todae was quite ok cuz the sun is not so strong like last week.. and it actualli drizzle for a while.. but i didn't learn much cuz i can't see.. haha.. then our bag locked in the classroom.. but michelle i think managed to get the key and open the door.. she saved all of us.. haha.. lame... then tse yun waited for mi and we went changkat for training.. training was as usual.. i dun like changkat cuz the place so dirty then the tables oso lousy one.. but the toilet veri clean.. that's the onli thing i like about changkat.. haha.. then gtg do my maths le..

Monday, July 11, 2005
3:15 PM

Jus came home from school.. took same bus with li jing.. she was sitting beside mi lor.. but we talked no more than 2 sentences.. so weird.. haha.. we two were like.. so quiet.. todae was quite ok.. not that boring.. dunno why i feel this way.. then eng did debate.. i have to be the speaker.. wat the... life is getting so hard on mi.. everything is going against mi.. our group was so pathetic until we have to draw lots to see hu is the speaker.. last time ss also like this.. our group always like this one la.. i dun mind being a speaker but i have to oppose!! how to oppose when i dun even how to talk properly!!! then the other group the english so pro.. and call mi to argue with them when i dun even noe the basic english... wat the.. cme teacher let us off early todae.. now i ahve so many things to do.. i'm in a mess state now.. can someone tell mi wat should i do? i feel that i have a lot a lot of things to do... and i'm not even in the mood to do so.. have to eng discussion.. if not how am i going to talk up there? am i here to suffer? i always wonder if any good thing will happen to mi? i doubt so.. i give in to fate.. haiz..

Another stay-at-home dae..

Sunday, July 10, 2005
5:56 PM

Another stay-at-home dae..

Jus had my dinner.. then the whole dae was watching tv and nothing else.. studied a bit of chem.. wanted to read e maths but found out that my textbook is in class.. actualli wanted to go popular to buy graph paper and my chi shou ce.. but there's no popular near my house.. and so lazy to leave my house too.. so fast another weekend had past.. haiz.. sian.. tomorrow got to wake up early and go to school again.. :( then there's two tests this thursade.. haiz.. all the tests are getting mi crazy and stressed.. i wan to go back to the holidaes!!! but i noe that is impossible.. hope that i can still have time to blog daily during school daes..

Saturday, July 09, 2005
6:43 PM

Bored..
Todae was basically a "stay-at-home" dae.. woke up at about 9.40 then do my physics.. after that went for breakfast.. came back and continued with my physics.. then watched jue dui superstar replay.. haha.. i love to watch replay one.. then read chem textbook cuz of the test on thursdae.. test again!! i have phobia of tests le.. then whole afternoon is watching tv and com.. haiz... gtg for dinner already.. anyway.. great thanx to si ying for ur hard work of doing my blog yesterdae.. and oso thanx to hui ru for helping mi to change to this lovely blog now.. haha.. u guys rox k?

Friday, July 08, 2005
7:03 PM

Just a boring dae as usual..
Todae went to school as usual... And lessons were boring as usual.. Especially English cuz have to do compo.. Then there's no science todae!! First time... After that went to Mac with tse yun, yan ping and hui ling then went changkat for training at 2.. Training was ok.. Then jus knew the results of superstar!! Leon was out!! I just can't believe it.. He rox k? Anyway first entry of my blog.. gtg for dinner already.. bye..